- i am feeling so worn down and exhausted at the moment. I am sleeping badly, even with sedatives. Mostly because I end up crying over the dude every second day or so. He is stressing about stuff, and although it is mostly good when I see him, there just hasn't been enough of it. And in between trying to have time with him, there are million birds to fetch all over the place, and there have been some really crap calls this week too. Birds that have been shot, birds hanging upside down in trees where we can't get to them.
I wake up in the morning and cry because I have to get out of bed.